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Regrets Part 1
Monday, 9 June 2014 13:12 "Etho, you Canadian scum! Come out here and fight me, or are you to scared to lose?" Nebris screamed, exhausted. Etho has been tormenting him for hours, the death games are continuing, and that was making Nebris frightened, but he would never admit that.
"Nebris, my dear Nebris," Etho paused, noticing how Nebris shuddered at the way he spoke, rough and raspy, normally his voice would be light and happy, but it wasn't now, "Who said I wanted to fight right now?" In a flash Etho was behind Nebris, whispering, "We already know who will win anyways." Nebris grip on his sword tightened, as his hands begun to shake and the raspy, rough voice, that belonged to Etho, wasn't helping him in his condition.
"Etho, leave me be." Nebris inhaled and exhaled slowly, trying to control the anger, but not just that, he was starting to get aroused. Etho wrapped his arms around nebris' waist, causing Nebris' breath to hitch in his throat.
"What would I do without your smart mouth?" Etho smiled, squeezing Nebris closer.
"What do you mean?" Nebris didn't notice, but his cheeks were turning red, as red as a tomato.
"I mean, all of me loves all of you." Etho tried his best to keep Nebris close, but Nebris was more built then him. Nebris pushed Etho away. Nebris was aroused because of this ninja, and he did not like that its because of the ninja. One look in Etho's eyes and you could tell, he was broken, by one slight movement that Nebris made. Etho fell to the ground and pulled his legs close to his chest, "I knew it, I shouldn't have listened to Pause and Beef. They don't understand. I told them that Nebris would say no." Etho whispered so low that Nebris could barely hear him.
Nebris turned and walked away, the cries from the ninja becoming a distant memory, but not so distant. It may haunt Nebris forever, for he will regret it when he sees Etho and Seth.
"Nebris, my dear Nebris," Etho paused, noticing how Nebris shuddered at the way he spoke, rough and raspy, normally his voice would be light and happy, but it wasn't now, "Who said I wanted to fight right now?" In a flash Etho was behind Nebris, whispering, "We already know who will win anyways." Nebris grip on his sword tightened, as his hands begun to shake and the raspy, rough voice, that belonged to Etho, wasn't helping him in his condition.
"Etho, leave me be." Nebris inhaled and exhaled slowly, trying to control the anger, but not just that, he was starting to get aroused. Etho wrapped his arms around nebris' waist, causing Nebris' breath to hitch in his throat.
"What would I do without your smart mouth?" Etho smiled, squeezing Nebris closer.
"What do you mean?" Nebris didn't notice, but his cheeks were turning red, as red as a tomato.
"I mean, all of me loves all of you." Etho tried his best to keep Nebris close, but Nebris was more built then him. Nebris pushed Etho away. Nebris was aroused because of this ninja, and he did not like that its because of the ninja. One look in Etho's eyes and you could tell, he was broken, by one slight movement that Nebris made. Etho fell to the ground and pulled his legs close to his chest, "I knew it, I shouldn't have listened to Pause and Beef. They don't understand. I told them that Nebris would say no." Etho whispered so low that Nebris could barely hear him.
Nebris turned and walked away, the cries from the ninja becoming a distant memory, but not so distant. It may haunt Nebris forever, for he will regret it when he sees Etho and Seth.
The thread of our love
Monday, 9 June 2014 12:58 Everyone keeps asking why we aren't talking, and I never have an answer. I still question myself, why I hurt him so much? Why did we fight, for so many stupid reasons, but the last time we saw each other, was real. I returned to the Mindcrack server, after being gone for three months because of a stupid fight we had, and I was ready to say sorry. There was a new guy on the server, Seth. I had no idea till I first saw him, drunk, half naked, and what ticked me off was that he was on top of panting, half drunk, Etho.
Etho...
I snapped, anger rushed into my veins. Etho glared with such hate at me.
All I could do was walk out and wish I was dreaming, but this was to real to be a dream. "I wanted to say sorry, but I guess you are to busy with your new fuck buddy. Why did I even try? You don't deserve a sorry." I said as I walked out of his place, trying to control my anger. I grabbed onto the golden handle and twisted it and pulled it open. I squeezed the handle with so much anger, my hand was hurting like someone took a sludge hammer and smashed my hand. As soon as I was outside, I slammed the door so loud, I heard Etho shriek because of the sudden power slam.
Etho... Please, stop torturing me with this thing we use to call "love."
But "love" isn't real. I just couldn't help it but believe it during our "Perfect" relationship. The kind of "love" that adults have that make us feel like teenagers again. If I bled to death, Etho wouldn't care. He did try to kill me millions of times.
"Say something, Nebris! I'm giving up on you! You can't just let me leave you!" Etho's teared stained face was broke me. Even through his desperate screams, I couldn't do anything. I couldn't move, speak. His tears felt like acid on my skin. His shouts were pulling his heart into peaces. They were a faint memory, the memory from when me and Etho parted three months ago. It pained me. We are now a faint memory. A memory he put behind himself, but I won't forget the smile, and laughs we shared before everything changed.
And then the delicate string that always holds you together snaps and what’s almost become an impeccably given part of your life falls away and no matter how hard you try to sometimes forgive, and sometimes forget, nothing seems to go away. Nothing. Etho will never leave my mind, hid desperate calls for love can be forgotten, but will be remembered in my dreams. I may try to erase that memory forever, I may try, but even if I try, it won't work.
"Nebris?" a voice asked. I turned around, and I noticed something, I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking and was over by the tree. The tree me and Etho carved into. Beef and Pause was with each other, holding hands. Beef was concerned, and Pause was just being himself, derping. "Are you crying?" He asked.
"Wha-" I said before feeling my wet, sad tears, trial down my face. I never hardly cried, Etho really have fucked me up this time. "Oh. Well don't worry about me. I'm fine." I smiled hoping he would believe me.
He gave me a skeptical look, "I've never, ever seen the mighty villain, Nebris, cry, so this has to be a very good reason."
"Seth and Etho are together. Did you know that? And I was going to say sorry to him for all of the shit I've caused. I even left him for three months to try and fix myself. I walked so far, fought so many battles, I wanted to come back and actually be missed by him. I didn't want to find another man with him." I laughed bitterly.
"You know you aren't the brightest in the bunch." Pause smiled, "But I would pick someone like you, if I didn't love Beef."
"So sweet on accident, but a real mess." Beef sighed. "If you want him back, then make him love you again. Simple as that."
Then the brightest idea ever came to my mind. I nodded at Beef and Pause then walked over to the flower shop in spawn, and started writing a note for him.
I'm sorry Etho. I was stupid and ruined the greatest thing that ever happened to me. Ruined my only happiness, and now without my happiness, without you, I feel lost, unsure, broken. I know it's hard to tie the delicate string that always holds us together, but can we try? -Nebris
I picked up the vase of red roses and carried them to his base. I set them down on the his front porch and put the note underneath the vase.
I hope this works...
I ringed the door bell and ran and hid behind the tree near his home to watch. Etho opened the door and looked down. He looked and noticed the vase full of red roses and the note under it. His picked them both up and sat on the porch. He put the flowers down, in between his legs and read the note. A small smile and blush appeared on his face. He took off his mask and smelled the red roses, for he really had a girlie side to him. He loved flowers. I smiled and snuck away, knowing how he loved the flowers and the note.
Etho...
I snapped, anger rushed into my veins. Etho glared with such hate at me.
All I could do was walk out and wish I was dreaming, but this was to real to be a dream. "I wanted to say sorry, but I guess you are to busy with your new fuck buddy. Why did I even try? You don't deserve a sorry." I said as I walked out of his place, trying to control my anger. I grabbed onto the golden handle and twisted it and pulled it open. I squeezed the handle with so much anger, my hand was hurting like someone took a sludge hammer and smashed my hand. As soon as I was outside, I slammed the door so loud, I heard Etho shriek because of the sudden power slam.
Etho... Please, stop torturing me with this thing we use to call "love."
But "love" isn't real. I just couldn't help it but believe it during our "Perfect" relationship. The kind of "love" that adults have that make us feel like teenagers again. If I bled to death, Etho wouldn't care. He did try to kill me millions of times.
"Say something, Nebris! I'm giving up on you! You can't just let me leave you!" Etho's teared stained face was broke me. Even through his desperate screams, I couldn't do anything. I couldn't move, speak. His tears felt like acid on my skin. His shouts were pulling his heart into peaces. They were a faint memory, the memory from when me and Etho parted three months ago. It pained me. We are now a faint memory. A memory he put behind himself, but I won't forget the smile, and laughs we shared before everything changed.
And then the delicate string that always holds you together snaps and what’s almost become an impeccably given part of your life falls away and no matter how hard you try to sometimes forgive, and sometimes forget, nothing seems to go away. Nothing. Etho will never leave my mind, hid desperate calls for love can be forgotten, but will be remembered in my dreams. I may try to erase that memory forever, I may try, but even if I try, it won't work.
"Nebris?" a voice asked. I turned around, and I noticed something, I wasn't paying attention to where I was walking and was over by the tree. The tree me and Etho carved into. Beef and Pause was with each other, holding hands. Beef was concerned, and Pause was just being himself, derping. "Are you crying?" He asked.
"Wha-" I said before feeling my wet, sad tears, trial down my face. I never hardly cried, Etho really have fucked me up this time. "Oh. Well don't worry about me. I'm fine." I smiled hoping he would believe me.
He gave me a skeptical look, "I've never, ever seen the mighty villain, Nebris, cry, so this has to be a very good reason."
"Seth and Etho are together. Did you know that? And I was going to say sorry to him for all of the shit I've caused. I even left him for three months to try and fix myself. I walked so far, fought so many battles, I wanted to come back and actually be missed by him. I didn't want to find another man with him." I laughed bitterly.
"You know you aren't the brightest in the bunch." Pause smiled, "But I would pick someone like you, if I didn't love Beef."
"So sweet on accident, but a real mess." Beef sighed. "If you want him back, then make him love you again. Simple as that."
Then the brightest idea ever came to my mind. I nodded at Beef and Pause then walked over to the flower shop in spawn, and started writing a note for him.
I'm sorry Etho. I was stupid and ruined the greatest thing that ever happened to me. Ruined my only happiness, and now without my happiness, without you, I feel lost, unsure, broken. I know it's hard to tie the delicate string that always holds us together, but can we try? -Nebris
I picked up the vase of red roses and carried them to his base. I set them down on the his front porch and put the note underneath the vase.
I hope this works...
I ringed the door bell and ran and hid behind the tree near his home to watch. Etho opened the door and looked down. He looked and noticed the vase full of red roses and the note under it. His picked them both up and sat on the porch. He put the flowers down, in between his legs and read the note. A small smile and blush appeared on his face. He took off his mask and smelled the red roses, for he really had a girlie side to him. He loved flowers. I smiled and snuck away, knowing how he loved the flowers and the note.
I think maybe, love is real. I just haven't been looking at it at the right way.